Some Excitement, Some Great News, and Top it Off with Some Billsh*t

We finally have are fully approved orders! About effing time too! I thought I was going to have an anxiety attack these past few weeks...since the orders reached admin and waited around on desks for skim throughs and John Hancocks. Yesterday we began our application process for military housing. We've never lived in base housing before and I'm actually looking forward to it. So yesterday we called (671) 333-2081 to speak with someone about housing. I do want to admit that they are not very informative over the phone and I do not completely understand how everything works, but here's my current understanding of it all:

We found the Form 1746: Application for Assignment to Housing online. Apparently you can get it from from http://www.housing.navy.mil/ but I couldn't get that website to even open. So I did a google search and found the Form 1746 here. I filled out the application for Matty...only because I like doing paperwork...not because he isn't capable. He had to get his Page 2 updated today because we realized "someone" never added Ezekiel correctly to Matty's Page 2. So Matty faxed the application, his Page 2, and his orders to the Guam Housing Office and I just called a few minutes ago to confirm that they received everything and that we have been added to the wait list. The guy was quiet. He didn't give me any more info then that so I had to pry for a little more. I want someone to instruct me on the housing procedures. Where's the overly helpful person to explain what needs to be done next?! So I ask...and he says that we need to report to housing within 48 hours of arrival and that we'll meet with a counselor, they'll go over the available housing with us, and then we'll agree on the move in date and do the necessary paperwork. So that's it for now as far as Guam housing goes. Can you tell I'm excited?

We need to contact Navy Gateway Inns and Suits and make reservations for our arrival....but it's a little too soon for a February move...I already tried. This guy was much nicer over the phone. He understood my need to over-plan everything and kindly suggested we try again in late November through December. We also need to get in touch with Personal Property to make arrangements for our pack-out date and shipping the truck...we'll attempt to take care of that tomorrow.

Matty went to PSD to let them know we'd like to fly out on February 1st! Hurray! We won't get our official tickets until sometime in December. Boo! Someone will be emailing them to Matty. Are you ready for some great news? Wait for it...






Wait for it...






The Navy is going to pay for our dogs' flights!! Sweet relief! That was the best news I heard all freaking day!

And here's the bullshit: even though we just got our US Passports less than a month ago, the Navy still requires us to get military issued passports... So we're waking up bright and early to go to that tomorrow ON MY DAY OFF! Catalina will be late to school :( BUT she will still go! She has an award ceremony tomorrow and after I drop her off I want to go pick up some balloons or flowers or something special to give her at her ceremony! I love my girl! She's so smart and she's a good student and she enjoys learning and loves school! My week is finally looking better.

one picture

WARNING: IF YOU ARE EASILY OFFENDED, DON'T READ ANY FURTHER

ONLY FOUL THINGS COMING OUT OF THIS LADY'S MOUTH TODAY

So today is the final day of my 10 Day You Challenge. I mostly did this to try and get myself in the habit of writing every day... that's been a little bit of a challenge... Since I finished my degree three and a half years ago, I don't write as much as I'd like to. For my one picture of myself, I contemplated putting a naughty pic just for shits and giggles and then decided against it. Let's keep it real...I'm not the naughty girl I used to be. Shit, my husband hasn't been laid in like a month or more...probably explains why he's been such a fucking asshole lately...tough shit mister...get a pocket pussy. 

So this is me...today...five minutes ago. I'll be honest, I snapped five pictures before I decided on the best one to put out there to everyone...that's one of the joys about the internet and blogging...you can try to put your best face forward...but let's face it, I haven't had my eyebrows done in three+ weeks! In my defense, I'm trying to grow them back out...thicken them back up...because I thought I had to black sperm looking eyebrows on my face...and I want to get them professionally shaped once they've grown in. I've always done my own eyebrows and I do a decent job, but they never look the symmetrical to me....so they especially don't right now. I don't wear a lot of makeup. I usually go NAT-TUR-AL....but this is my make up after 13 hours...no foundation just eye shadow and mascara...well, what's left of it. My hair is always fucking frizzy like this. I know, such a homely looking broad, huh? It's mostly because I also go all NAT-TUR-AL with my hair too...rarely brush the shit and when I do I don't use hair products. Those years when girls were experimenting with their "image" I was a dread head. I showered daily and shaved my legs/armpits regularly, but I wasn't concerned with what I looked like. I put my locks in pigtails or a nice dreadcap. I never had much "style" and still don't. I'm listening to Deadmau5 Radio on Pandora...trying to block out the fact that I'm completely annoyed with my husband right now. 

We got into an argument over dog crates... He was trying to squeeze my Bully into a tiny crate because he's a cheap bastard. I've been doing all the research for this move. And for a flat faced dog on an international flight, you have to go with a crate size larger...don't believe me? Call Continental. So anyway, this prick decides to start an argument with me in PetCo and then tried to act like he was going to leave me and my dog there. I know this move is stressful, but I'm really fucking tired of arguing every time we talk about anything related to this move. Fuck you! Goodnight.  

two songs

If you've been reading my other posts then you would expect me to pick something by Sublime and Bob Marley...and I did consider doing that...but one of my all time favorite albums is Deftones - Around the Fur. I love every song on this album, but this is one of my favorites:
1.

Poor Matty.....It's too bad...That you're married...To Me.

I'm also a huge Beatles fan. I love this song:

2.

three films

Another tough post for me. I love to watch movies. But I'm not big on remembering titles. Here are three of my all-time favs though and the first to come to mind:

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Or anyother movie with Denzel Washington in it. I love that man. This movie in particular is my number 1 though. It's ever mom's nightmare to have their child taken from them, especially in another country! This story amazed me though. A man that's willing to trade his own life to free a child that's not even his own.....it just warms my heart. Plus, this flick has a bunch of action and the videography is just amazing. 

2.

I love this movie! It's hilarious. I love the sound track. The days of freshman hazing were long gone by the time I entered high school...and I'm glad for that...I would kill a bit$h if she cracked eggs on me and covered me in flour and drove me through a car wash. 

3.

Very cool movie. It's a Germain flick...it's entirely in subtitles...it combines techno and animation and a decent story line. One of those movies with multiple endings. If you haven't seen this one, you should check it out. 

four books

This is pretty challenging. I'm sad to say that I don't read very often. :( I used to LOVE books so much as a child and as an adult I do not make time for them. So I'm going to put my four favorite books to read to my daughter instead.

1.  I LOVE this book! I wrote a paper about it in college. I really enjoy this book because you can't really say if Big is the mom or dad, if Small is a daughter or son. It's a beautiful story about the unconditional love that a parent has for their child. I think it's a great book for a child who doesn't have both children in their life, whether it be because one parent is in the military, has passed away, or just absent for any reason.

2.  My friend Laura got this book for my daughter for her 5th birthday and I think it's absolutely adorable!

3.  Everyone has to have a favorite Dr. Seuss book. We own this one in pop up! I love all the positive and inspiring quotes from this book.

4.  My Catalina loves when I read to her. Do you remember this one?

five foods

Yummy! I've been looking forward to this one!

5.  Asparagus. I wouldn't even try asparagus as a kid. In fact, I just tried it for the first time earlier this year! And you know what? I love it!!

I like pretty much all veggies...steamed...slightly crispy. 

4.  Kabobs. I love making kabobs! I like mixing up the marinade, getting my hands all disgusting while I put the meat and veggies on the kabob, and just how easy they are to prepare/serve/eat.

Pre-Grilled Chicken & Veggie Kabobs

3.  Real Fruit Smoothies. When I was 18 I used to work at Tropical Smooth. So I know a lot of great fruit smoothie recipes. I know, this is more like a drink...but with all the fruit...it kinda qualifies as a food...

Strawberry Pineapple Mango

Berry Smoothie

If you don't think smoothies count as food, then I'd have to pick my Fruit Pizza. It's colorful, it's delicious, and it's a hit at any barbecue or party.

And you can make it any way you like with your favorites fruits

2.  Albondigas. Isn't that a fun word to say?! Albondigas is a Mexican Meatball Soup. It's pretty easy to make and super tasty.

I've never taken a picture of my Albondigas, so I borrowed this shot from here.

1.  Chimichangas. I've never attempted to make these. In Virginia Beach there is a restaurant called Plaza Azteca (my mom, sis, and I have always called it Plaza Ass-Wreckers) and in my opinion, they make the best Chimichangas, hands down. I like mine with carne asada and fried.

This is making me hungry.

six places

I am having some serious writer's block today. I cannot think of one place right now. Where are 6 places I'd like to be? Places I'd like to see? Places I want to visit before our move? Places I'd like to live? Maybe I'll do this a little differently and put the pictures before the places...

I stole borrowed this image from here.

1.  Guam. I am ready to be there already. Probably because I'm exhausted of work and I long to be on the...

One of My Own Shots...this is at La Jolla, CA

2.  Beach...somewhere anywhere...and preferably with an iced cold margarita in hand. I am always at peace on the beach, even with a crotch full of sand...but even more so when that doesn't happen.  After Guam, I would like to live in...

I borred this from here.

3. Italy. I bet it's beautiful there. Matty and I have decided that we'd like to see the world while we're living this Navy Life. It'll give our family the opportunity to travel to some very interesting places. I wouldn't mind going to...

This is not in Julian...it's a pear orchard across the street from my father-in-law's house just before a storm...
I think it's beautiful...except for those damn power lines. 

4.  Julian, CA this or next weekend. It's apple season and I'd love to have a slice of Julian Apple Pie, to see the leaves turning colors before we go, and Matty wants some fresh apple cider. Yum! We had a lot of fun when we went last year. We're hoping to go to...

I borrowed this from here.

5. DISNEYLAND for Christmas! I hear that it's also really fun around Halloween! I want my dad and Lisa whoever else can afford it to join us there for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. We're going to be tired of sleeping on the floor in an empty house around that time, so it'll be nice to sleep in a bed.  Plus we want to give the kids something memorable before we go. But someday I hope to be...

I borrowed this form here.

6.  Lounging Poolside at My Dream House on the Beach with My Mom and Sister! A girl's gotta dream, right??!?  Maybe you can join us there someday.

Where's someplace you'd rather be right now?

seven wants

1.  I Want To Live Healthier - Mind, Body, & Soul.

2.  I Want To Love Without Hesitation. 

3.  I Want A Better Life for My Kids.

4.  I Want A House to Make a Home.

5.  I Want A Mommy Make-Over.

6.  I Want To Travel.

7.  I Want More Money So I Can Do All These Things.

eight fears

I don't know why when I think of fears...I think of bad dreams.

1.  Losing My Children. Have you ever had a dream about losing your child? Your on a crowded beach or in an airport or walking through the mall, you look away for a second and they've disappeared?! Or how about the dream that someone literally tears your baby from your arms and takes off! It feels so real that you wake up in a panic! I could not image having to go through that in real life. So many children go missing every day. It blows my mind when I see little kids outside without any adult figure looking after them. This fear puts a tight knot in my stomach.

Scary, huh?!!
In my nightmares...it's always Catalina that disappears, gets kidnapped, or ends up missing....
which might have something to do with my next fear... 

2.  Being a Bad Mom.  I have an amazing mom! She has always shown me unconditional love. She's been supportive of every life decision I've made. I only wish to be half the woman she is... Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing something right... I'm not talking about the basic stuff like dressing, clothing providing for my seed. I'm afraid of scarring my children mentally. I get super stressed out when my children are whining...to the point where I just wanna shake the shit out of them...I would NEVER do that, but damn they can make my blood boil. I don't have the same sweet, never-ending-patience that my mom had with us kids. I want to raise well rounded children. Kids that aren't spoiled, have what they need, and appreciate what they have. I want them to be happy, to feel loved and secure, to grow up self-confident and prepared to take on the world. I want my babies to make wiser choices than I did. I want them to share my values: be loyal but not taken advantage of, have integrity and strong work ethics, value and respect others, and know their worth. I don't want my babies to grow up hating me or feeling like I was too busy with work to spend time with my family. I want to truly know my children and I want them to know me.

3. Not Living a Happy Life. Sometimes I can be downright miserable and negative and I beat myself up. I get super stressed out about work and money and I bring it home with me. I need to make a stronger effort to be happy or I'm going to destine myself to a miserable life. I need to post some notes like these in places I will frequently see them.

4.  Being a Failure. Failure at life. Failure at work. Failure at raising my children. Failure in marriage. Failure in developing meaningful relationships with friends. Failing to paying bills on time.  Failure at learning to balance all of the above and keep my sanity.

5.  Car Accidents. Catalina and I were in a bad car accident when she was just a year old. Some ass was arguing with his girlfriend instead of paying attention, blew through a red light, and t-boned the driver side of my Focus. Instead of being a decent person and stopping to see if we were all right, he went to the bus station to try and get witnesses to say that I ran the red light. I was taken to the hospital and luckily for me there were lights at the intersection. The fire department that responded to the accident said that if Catalina had had her arm on the arm rest of her car seat then it would have been crushed in the impact. She was wearing a turtleneck that day so luckily the glass didn't shatter and cut her up. She came out unscathed. Ever since then, I feel super paranoid while I'm driving. I constantly picture the people next to me crashing into me. When I see bad car accidents, my eyes tear up.

This is the turtleneck that kept Catalina from getting glass all over her.

Her old car seat...in the back of the Focus.
Like a good little girl, she always sat with her hands in her lap.

6.  Thinning Hair and Losing Teeth.  I HATE when I have dreams about my hair or my teeth falling out. I had to look up some Dream Definitions to help explain this:

To dream that you are losing your hair denotes that you are concerned with the notion that you are getting older and losing your sex appeal and virility. You are preoccupied with aging and your appearance.  Losing your hair also signifies a lack of strength; you do not have the power to succeed in an undertaking. You may be feeling weak and vulnerable.

So it turns out that there are a ton of different meanings to dreams about losing teeth! Here are a few: 

Dreams about teeth, and losing teeth, are a reflection of the dreamer’s anxiety about his or her appearance, and about how the dreamer thinks others perceive him or her.

Dreams of losing teeth can be manifestations of fears of getting old, fears of sexual impotence or other dating related anxieties.

They are representations of fear of embarrassment or making a fool of oneself. 

Dreams of losing teeth represent an exaggeration of already present fears or anxieties brought on by the upcoming event. 

People who are troubled by dreams of losing teeth or teeth falling out should examine their own lives for the source of possible embarrassment or appearance based anxieties.

Interesting. Yeah, I can understand why I hate having these types of dreams.  Have you ever had dreams like that? 

7.  Not Getting Out of Debt.  I'm not a trust fund baby. My parents did not set aside money for my higher education. I was not advised on how to pay for college as I go. I am the first person in my entire family (both sides I believe, my dad's side for sure) to get my degree and I put myself through college...which means I have a shit ton of debt. I fear I'll never get out of this hole!

8.  Not Losing The Weight I've Put On Since Having Children. 

nine loves

1.  My Family. I cannot imagine life without my children. I love my husband and I still care for my daughter's father. My mom and dad made the strong person that I am today. My brother and sister have always been my partners in crime. My niece holds a special place in my heart. My Aunt Nikki is one of my bestest friends. My family has always filled me with love. All of my cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents are amazing people. Being a Navy brat, I never got to see them often enough but my love for them has always been there.

2.  Dogs. My family dogs to be precise. Bobo was our first dog, a long-haired cockerspaniel. The neighborhood kids loved him so much one of them stole him from us. Peppep used to walk us to the bus stop every day and be waiting for us when we returned. Buster would take a beating from my brother and come right back for more. Monah was my frisbee girl and she wouldn't let any guy near me if I were asleep. Molly and Buttercup have destroyed my apartment, eaten through drywall and chewed up vinyl flooring, yet they still bring me much joy.

Bo Bo

Buster Ballz the D.O.Double G

Miss Monah Moan

My Pep-Pep with Catalina the day we arrived in Cali...
I thought she's live forever...I got her in 2nd or 3rd grade & she passed after I graduated college

My Girls 

3.  Kyanne & Cade. Miles of land and sea may separate us, but nothing can come between us. I met Kyanne in high school. She was a Teen Mom and I know first hand it's not as glamourous as MTV makes it out to be. Being there for the birth of my godson was one of the most beautiful and memorable experiences of my life. I can't even describe how I feel about Kyanne and Cade. I love you, Kyanne! I love you, Cade!

4.  Sublime & Bob Marley & Music in General. I love all kinds of music really: techno, punk, classic rock, gangster rap, hip hop, reggae, pop... But Sublime and Bob Marley are my all time favorites. Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong area.

5.  Sunsets. There's something magnificent about a sunset. You wait for it, watching the sky change all these beautiful warm colors, and then the sun vanishes so quickly into the horizon.

Sunset at Catalina Ranch Summer 2011

6.  Being Near the Water. I have many memories of being near the water. When we were really small there were these waterfalls that my father took all of us to. We'd wall down this long path through the woods, play in the stream, and Daddy would walk us down the slippery rocks and take us under the falls.  My friends Brandy & Heather used to live next to a creek and we'd spend hours looking for crawfish. When we lived in Williamsburg, VA my dad bought a boat and we loved going out on the river: tubing, waterskiing, wakeboarding, jumping off of the pier. In Virginia Beach, we'd spend the summers next at the beach with our friends; hang out at night and listen to the crashing waves. We live in San Diego and there are lots of beautiful beaches: Ocean Beach with its hippie culture and Dog Beach, Mission Beach with the Wave House, and La Jolla with the sea lions at Kid's Cove are my favs. I love Sunset Cliffs! We're getting ready to move to Guam. I would be lost without the ebb and flow of the tides. It's no wonder why I'm a sailor's wife.

La Jolla 

7.  Tattoos, Piercings, & Dreadlocks. There's just something exhilerating about punk and hippie culture to me. Rockabilly girls are gorgeous and define beauty to me. I love men with big arms covered in tattoos. Septum piercings and gauged ears are a turn on. My senior quote read more like a classifieds ad, "I'm looking for a dreadhead with strong arms, tattooes, and a green thumb."

8.  Photography & Writing. I think the word "captivating" sort of sums it up.


9.  Tequila & the Beach. That's right. It's salty when we kiss.




it's late and i've been working on this for-ev-er!